I was so excited about seeing Foals today and it turns out my mom isn't letting me go because I'm too lazy and other than going to school I don't do much. I asked her yesterday if she'd be able to take me and she said no and then today in the morning she was being nice to me so I thought she'd changed her mind. I asked her again and then she started yelling at me. :'[

This is just terrible!!! I haven't stopped crying. I was looking forward to this soooo much. These stupid concerts are the only exciting things in my life. I don't go out, I don't do anything else. I never ask for anything either. No clothes or shoes or electronics or anything else. I haven't bought clothes or shoes in over three years and my sister's paid for part of my MP3 player and computer. All I ever expect from my parents is food and shelter and for them to be able to take me to concerts once in a while.

I wish this didn't mean as much to me and I could get over it but I can't. It feels like someone punched me in the heart. My eyelids are swollen again from crying so much and I can barely see. :[